Got me a boy who says shit like “this isn’t a problem that you need to get over on your own, this is a problem that we’re gonna figure out how to work through together” and I started bawling because who the fuck knew that was real and just a line in some romcom
Tonight is the first time in a very long time that I have felt like I wanted to self harm and I don’t understand why but I am fighting the urge and I thought that typing this out and posting it into existence would be a good visual for me in order to help me. I wish I could just stop fucking feeling like this.
I am floored by the relationship I have with my boyfriend. I’ve been festering this problem for so long and he just listened to me while I felt so vulnerable and scared and he was just so reassuring. He tried to understand what I was feeling and even when he couldn’t he never discredited my emotions once. I was so scared of venting about this and he just asked me to be honest with him and we’ll figure things out. I’ve never felt so cared about before. He just made me feel like the solution wasn’t about ‘fixing’ me it was about figuring out how to talk these things out and tackle them better the next time they happen. I just feel so loved.
Also I’m going to be a motherfucking forensic psychologist
Alcohol is by far the best part of being an adult.
Lol fuck birthdays and fuck New Years
Was hoping I’d be feeling better about my birthday this year but nooooooooooooooope
I got drunk at my boyfriend’s aunt wedding because his mom kept making me take shots with her and her sisters and I regret absolutely nothing.
I am high and listening to Beach House and thinking about the fact that I’m about to be a senior at a UC and graduate and have to look for a job. Also the fact that high school was three years ago and how different literally everything in my life is. Growing up is so weird and I’m pretty sure I’m going to perpetually have this feeling until I die no matter how old I get.